Monday, 12 September 2016

Life Lately feat. a lot of stress


I've sat down to write this post in shorts and a vest top after just getting an ASOS parcel containing several new jumpers because I have literally no idea what season it is at the minute? Although I'm definitely a sun baby so I'm not quite ready to let go of summer just yet especially as this lovely weather seems to be clinging on for dear life. Don't get me wrong I LOVE the beginnings of autumn (like any good cliché blogger) but darker nights always bring a touch of SAD with them and I turn into even more of an emotional mess than usual.

Okay so I'm not entirely sure how coherent this post will be but honestly my heads a bit of a shed right now so I hope it might help me sift through some of the mess. SO much is happening right now; most of it really really exciting, but my lack of organisational ability is making it hard to keep track of it all. I definitely need to invest in a diary.

Right so biggest thing first, I'm moving house! Its been on the cards for a good year but now we've actually started applying for flats and houses it feels a lot more real. I'm moving out of my mum and dads house a good three hours away to live with my boyfriend down in Ipswich and I'll be honest with you thinking about it makes me feel a bit sick. I've never visited Ipswich before; in fact I've never actually been that far down south before, so I'm pretty terrified.

I'm also pretty nervous about not actually getting to view any of these houses myself as poor Marc's doing all of the looking/ringing and applying alone. The houses/flats move so fast down there that it’s just not feasible for me to get down to see any even after the first viewing, in fact our very first application for a house got rejected, along with 7 others, just yesterday. It seems like every man and their dog are trying to rent a house in Ipswich at the moment so I've had to make peace with the idea that I won't actually be able to see the house we pick until we're already tenants.

So as well as hunting for a new place to live this change of city means that I’m also on the hunt for a new job. I've spent the past year working part time in retail after struggling to find anything full time or degree related, something I've spoken about here in the past. But as this move is the perfect opportunity for a bit of a change I've started applying for graduate jobs again! It’s scary searching for the kind of jobs I've previously been turned down for, but I have a lot more practical experience this time round so I'm definitely in a better position application wise. I just need to keep my positive pants on and remember that I am absolutely capable of doing the kind of job I really want, even if I get a few rejections along the way.

Thinking about all the things I need to get sorted for before, during and even after the move means my brain is turning about millions miles an hour at the moment and I generally have the headache of all headaches. I've got my 5th driving test booked for just before I'm due to move down but oh my god what if I don't pass? And then there's the chance I might not get a job for a good few months after moving or I might get offered a job before we've found somewhere to live. I’ve also been thinking about how you even go about trying to make new friends as an adult in their almost mid-twenties? 

However despite all the stress it’s causing me right now (and man am I a massive bundle of stress) I am SO looking forward to all the fun stuff that comes with moving when we do eventually find the right house. I can't wait to start shopping for interior stuff (so many prints, so many candles) and I'm beyond happy that I'm finally getting to live with my favourite person after over 4 years together. I'm excited about the prospect of a new Job that I look forward to going to in the morning and I'm even a lil excited about living in a town with a LUSH!

There's a lot to be scared of but I think there's a lot to be excited about too! 

Okay I think I might be done. I just really needed a place to write all this down so I have more room in my brain for bus routes and pictures of flats, I hope that's okay with you guys and I hope you're all well too. <3


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